Chiang Mai or Leon?

It was a coin toss, Chiang Mai Thailand or Leon Nicaragua.  Round trip flight to Leon was about a thousand dollars cheaper but all the blogs I read focused on how great Leon was as long as you were there with someone. There was very little written about how great Leon was if you were a singlet.

Now, on the other hand, Chiang Mai, every blog you read is filled with how friendly the people are and what a great place to be if you are a singlet. And for those looking for sex, Pattaya is supposed to be the place to be but I read Chiang Mai has a great deal to offer in that department. My first week here I was asked out by two different girls, beautiful Thai girls in their 20's. 

I left America Jan 2nd and have yet to get laid and that is by choice. The massage parlors offering sex hold no interest for me. hookers hold no interest for me. My last encounter with a hooker was November 1984, her hooker name was Samantha. I met her at Tequilla Willies in Tucson. I did not know she was a hooker when I picked her up. After I picked her up we scored some coke. Long story short, I could not shower the experience off and I tried. I had the experience, now lets move on-----

When it comes to sex I'm interested in passion and intimacy. Can't find that at a brothel. Can't find that with a whore.

I can't even understand the appeal of a massage with a "happy ending". For me, I would not be able to get the thought out of my head that she'd just fucked, sucked or jerked off someone else off minutes before I walked in. That is a mental/sexual ambush of desire. No. Not for me.

I might be kidding myself in thinking any hot Thai girl would or could truly fall in love with me as a 53 year old man. I just don't see that happening but time will tell.

What time and experience has taught me about dating women in America who are in their 30's, 40's or 50's is this. I can do without it. They are either fat, covered in stretch marks while possessing saggy tits. Worst of all they have the horribly bad attitudes. They bring nothing I desire to the table. Nothing. No thing. Not a damn thing. Most of them can't help from acting as if life has fucked them over and guess what, they will blame you. They will make you pay for the deeds of others. They seem reluctant, unable or incapable of looking into the mirror and saying:

"I created the life I am living and have no one to blame but myself"

About the stretch marks and saggy tits let me say this, it makes a difference if those things are a result of giving birth to my child or my children.

For years I believed strong willed men are (mostly) attracted to strong willed women. My first wife was strong willed and it created it's share of issues but it also created lots of good stuff so I tend to give that saying some credibility. My second wife was just fucking crazy in disguise of being a strong willed woman.  

I learned from my first wife to NEVER get involved with a Christian again. I learned from my second wife, at the first sign of crazy, drop her like a hot coal. The crazy will only get worse.